The following are philosophical explorations of the concept that there are two distinct polarities, STO (service to others) and STS (service to self), at work behind the scenes and within the human drama.
While some may find the following material to be impractical, many who have experienced the ultimate weirdness of gang stalking find meaning in considerations such as these. If such material is not useful to you, then it’s not useful; each individual must decide what is meaningful for them.
What many have come to call The Matrix is essentially a hyperdimensional teaching/learning system. Within this system there appear to be two distinct branches, or polarities: STO and STS, service-to-others and service-to-self. It seems as developing beings we encounter various experiences related to STO and STS, with the goal of becoming aware of these facets within the world and within ourselves. On the surface these are the good guys and the bad guys. At the deepest layers these are but two facets of the infinity of Creation, and do not really exist on other layers of reality, as everyone serves themselves and the Whole. It seems to me that distinctions like STO and STS are useful tools as humans because we are learning to take more active parts in the creation of reality as it unfolds. As people waking up from previous notions about reality and the way things work, our attention is drawn to the gray area in between these extremes. In this stage of development there appears to be a clashing of STO and STS.
Where did we come from?
At some point we each developed from a hive consciousness (also referred to as 2nd-density. Most animals belong to this group, with the most developed members about to reach soul individuation. Many humans still cling to this way of moving in the world). Having unique experiences eventually led to our branching off from collective consciousness to become the unique individuals that we are today.
In a larger view, STO and STS are different ways of experiencing and developing as conscious beings. In a less polarized perspective, even STS beings serve others because everything and everyone adds to the All. Within this larger view, STO and STS are seen merely as polarities that ‘do work’. For example, a circuit has both positive and negative poles, without these poles, no electricity is produced and no work can be done.
Since this 3rd-density realm is largely concerned with learning to discern between the polarities, we are given opportunities to do just that. These come in the form of encounters with both STO and STS entities and experiences. Some are humans who have decided on one path or the other, and some are higher (more developed in consciousness) beings who, as well as helping us learn, seek to offer a choice between the two paths. For STO beings this means offering additional perspective. For STS beings this means attempting to indoctrinate us toward the STS way of seeing things. This is where free will comes in. STS beings attack free will by attempting to influence us into giving up our free will. I do not believe that choosing a side means anything like a difference between those who will make it to heaven and those who will not move forward or go to hell. These distinctions STO and STS are just temporary labels/tools that can be useful in exploring the different ways in which we create and experience reality.
What about outright attacks that violate a person’s free will?
There are differing views on this, as with most things. Some people believe that we essentially create what we experience through our thoughts and beliefs, and the choices we make that also contribute. The problem that some people see with this view is that it’s disturbing to think that of all the horrible things that can happen in life, even the most innocent people may have somehow attracted the experiences. I think that there is a lot of truth to ‘you create your reality’, but that such a simple phrase expresses a surface understanding; in practice it is much more complex and our differing levels of consciousness and development of free will have a lot to do with the complexities.
Some believe that we are each living out our lives with the help of a ‘life script’ created by our higher self, a portion of ourselves; the life script affording for certain learning opportunities to arise throughout our lives. If this is the case then seemingly even the most difficult or horrific experiences are things we can learn from. Of course the assumption of a life script is that there is more to existence than living just one life. I say assumption in the general analysis step, as for myself I have observed and experienced too many patterns of continuous life to have any other perspective –that said, I think we as beings endowed with free will can even choose not to continue -or something like that anyway.
I digress a bit here, but I think that where early STS types decide such a path through wanting to be sure they survive, someone who is further along on this path and starts to encounter the entropy that tends to happen when they do their best to suck on and leech energy from everything around them eventually starts feeling really uncomfortable and hating existence, even to the degree that they imagine themselves able to suck and suck until they Pop into a black hole of non-being. Similarly, it seems that those who are yet uncomfortable with the idea that our actions and ideas we hold all add up and create who we are, and that this is a never ending process, can sometimes feel so overwhelmed that they try to ignore the urgings from nature to grow up and take the reigns of their share of reality creation. Of course people in this phase are great opportunities (potential pawns) for more aware STS types.
The view of one’s life having a script does not mean that everything is predetermined, but that a list of lesson types is scripted (by us!), yet our decisions and actions, as well as those of others, determine how these learning opportunities come about. So too our actions and decisions play a role in how easy or difficult the lessons are to learn. Some lessons may take more repetitions to learn from if we are not able to discern the deeper meaning the first time a learning opportunity presents itself.
And then some believe that life’s misfortunes are a combination of scripted learning opportunities and rather unscripted interference by more developed STS type beings. Some feel that the higher self allows such interference to penetrate our experience for the sake of learning. Whether you believe that negative interference is allowed or not, the fact is that it does happen and the best we can do is to learn from these interferences by developing more awareness so as to be able to avoid them in the future.
Sides? What’s wrong with just mucking along and making ends meet?
The short answer: Nothing really, unless you run into an STS being (if you’re reading this, you probably have), in which case it’s an opportunity to either expand one’s understanding and consciousness, or to run the risk of being sucked into the STS hierarchy (or repeating this phase of learning until you grasp the necessary understanding).
Within a group of STO oriented people, self development is consciously in tune with a greater good, with awareness and caring about whether something is beneficial for another being in addition to what it means for us personally. Within STS groups, there is not a group per se, but a hierarchical food chain where the more powerful bid and feed on the less powerful. For the sake of discussion let’s label those who have yet to wake up ‘Undecided’. (Please note that this label is for discussion and understanding STS-STO dynamics for those experiencing negative interference. Some people who might appear to fall into the category ‘undecided’ may just be STO types busy acting out their own life mission which has little to do with direct STO-STS conflict. I refer to Undecideds here, as those people who are being manipulated by STS yet do their best to ignore it.)
Undecideds tend not to have as developed sense of free will and so do not fully utilize their free will when it comes to analyzing life’s opportunities. For example, if given choice A or choice B, such beings are less likely to discover and implement a ‘choice C’, an altogether different action of their own determination. Not utilizing free will makes people relatively easy prey for STS beings looking to inject their own views and agendas, which seek to limit the perspectives of others. Such STS lessons surround the basic tenet “it’s a dog eat dog world and the best self can do is look out for #1″.
Another concept worth interjecting here is that of ‘organic portals’. As touched on above, hive consciousness (some call 2nd-density) is a more primitive state where individual members are like fingers of a hand, they make actions based on a collective pool of information, without individually processing and understanding. The information that one picks up is eventually added to the pool of shared information, but is generally not consciously acted upon. While many people are fully individuated and have split off from hive consciousness, it appears that not all people have reached this level of individuality. There being degrees of development everywhere one looks, this is not as alien in concept as it may at first seem. In theory, organic portals are beings who, while on their way to full individuation, have yet to attain a breaking away from hive consciousness. As such, these beings appear physically to be the same as fully individuated beings, yet for the most part function more like robots who run on the beliefs and gathered information of the collective. On their own, these are not malicious beings, but portals through which the hive consciousness seeks to understand individuality. When manipulated by more conscious STS types, organic portals can become malicious agents. Granted, any one who lets go of their awareness can fall prey to STS manipulations, but organic portals do not have the same opportunity/capacity to learn and make adjustment to the individual perspectives and actions.
STO and STS beings and behaviors regarding gang stalking
In one sense, stalkers and targets are all learning lessons about discerning between STS and STO, ’service-to-self’ and ’service-to-others’ (respectively). ‘Undecideds’ are those who are ignorant of the distinction –that is, they are relatively unconscious or asleep; they have not chosen to be on either side, and/or they stand to benefit from better understanding through experiencing one or the other more distinctly. This is the whole notion of there always being someone behind the wheel of our thoughts and emotions, hopefully it’s ourselves, but someone/something is controlling our actions even if it’s not a conscious self. When a person does not utilize their free will (all the related nifty tools like observation and intuition) they are essentially vessels, or vectors of attack for battles between blossoming individuals on more particularly STS or STO paths. –since STS beings have no problem with manipulating others they try to actively puppet Undecideds, where STO types tend to be more solitary and develop their strength through the attack by multiplicity that STS types dish out when they can.
It seems that many targets tend to be very compassionate people who are working on STO lessons in which we as individuals are taking on multiple ‘Undecideds’ who are influenced by those working on STS type lessons. STS beings serve themselves by manipulating anyone and everyone they can, again, to suit their own selfish ends without regard for other’s individual needs or desires (except for where it suits their own). Because consciously STS types work at influencing others to give up their free will, and seek to limit the perspectives of others, it seems that Undecideds tend to fall under the influence of STS (either through negative encounters or indoctrination) unless their own development is balanced enough to be able to discern such attacks.
A word of caution: As far as I can tell, the majority of stalkers are essentially sleeping Undecideds, grayhats, who sometimes ‘do the right thing‘ and sometimes do not. Their relative unconsciousness tends to mean they do the right thing when others are watching, and judge what the right thing is by a consensus native to their level of development and fellow grayhats. Basically, they do the right thing when it’s convenient for them. So long as it’s more convenient to go back to sleep, they give up their reigns on free will, the fewer true STS beings all too happy to take over. As a being aligning oneself with STO, learning to discern between the three main types of beings found in life, means not attacking less aware beings. There is simply nothing to gain from revenge or acting out ‘justice’ by attacking the attackers.
Acquiring Knowledge toward Free Will
Knowledge. The seeking and application of knowledge helps us make the most of the challenges we face. Working with the knowledge we collect brings understanding, where we are able to apply what we’ve learned. If we throw up our hands and give in to defeatist feelings and attitudes life can be very hellish; a prison. By learning from negative experiences, working to understand the differences between STO and STS on a deeper level, applying what we learn to our daily lives, and doing our best to maintain a positive outlook, we make the choice that life is a school. We are learning lessons and eventually will graduate to the next phase of development. How quickly or well we learn these lessons determines how long it will take to graduate.
Free Will
Free will is a key concept. STO beings highly respect free will and will not interfere with another being’s perspective (indoctrination is seeking to limit another’s perspective for personal gain, whereas open sharing of perspective is a neutral or friendly stance when it comes to exchanging perspectives) STO beings do not intend to control another being’s right to learn their own lessons and make their own decisions. Decidedly STO beings will only seek to offer additional/alternative perspective to others. When it comes to interacting with relatively less developed beings this means offering perspective and engaging in direct discussion. Likewise we can request the assistance of STO beings, but probably won’t get much help if we insist on it.
STS beings seem to respect free will only as a potential limitation to their agenda of control. Because applied free will can almost always assist a person in seeing the manipulations of an STS bent on controlling them (therefore nullifying the attack), higher STS beings cannot always count on their greater development to be strong enough to overpower someone else. Thus STS usually seek to influence ‘Undecideds’ into giving up their free will. While this is tricky maneuvering on their part, and close to violation of free will, it is technically not a violation, as all beings are endowed with free will, including STS beings. When free will is not engaged there is a lot of ‘gray area’ through which STS beings can attempt to influence a person’s perception of reality.
The Etheric
The etheric is a metaphysical layer of reality through which much of physical reality manifests. Most people experience the ethereal through things like daydreaming, fantasy and emotions. When we think about something a lot, or suppress strong emotions, these tend to become thoughtforms. Thoughtforms are just what they sound like, thoughts that have taken on a form of their own and continue to live on in the etheric.
The more conscious we are, the more aware we are of how our thoughts and feelings are processed in our inner worlds (psyche). On the positive side of things, we can focus our attention on thoughtforms and even create thoughtforms to help us. An intentionally created thoughtform can be about anything from helping us to recognize danger, expanding our perceptions, or even something as mundane as helping us find missing objects. By programming these portions of our mind we are investing energy in creating a program (an entity with limited consciousness of its own) that can carry out processes. This is a way of delegating tasks or processing so we do not have to spend conscious energy but can still utilize the functions when called for. On the negative side, thoughtforms can affect our state of mind with negativity if we are not aware of them and do not seek to correct the imbalances they represent. The most common example is the repressing of strong emotions.
Processing Negative Emotions
Where a conscious response to strong negative emotions tends to include perception of the emotion and conscious processing, an unconscious response to strong emotion is to ignore it, to deny it and shove it away. When this happens repeatedly or with very strong emotions, these collect in the subconscious and can form negative thoughtforms or bodily distortions like illness. Negative thoughtforms, in turn, affect our outlook related to the emotion or the circumstances and events where the emotion occurred.
With regard to the conscious processing of emotions, there two main approaches that can be classified as STO and STS methods. Conscious processing of negative emotion for an STO: the emotion is perceived, intensified in the mind (that is, fully confronted), time is taken to understand the emotion, with the end goal being to accept the emotion and integrate it into one’s psyche. How a developed STS being deals with negative emotions is different and rather than acceptance, the goal is control. When a decidedly STS being perceives a negative emotion, similar to the STO approach the emotion is intensified (fully confronted), but then this energy is funneled toward controlling the emotion, others and the circumstances surrounding the occurrence of the emotion.
To recap, conscious processing of negative emotions is key to using them as learning opportunities, catalyst for continued growth. Whether one uses conscious processing of negative emotions for STO type ends or STS, there is ‘work done’ and the negative emotion is transformed into further development of consciousness. When one does not consciously process negative emotions they can lead to mental and physical distortions such as illness.
For STO, turning an emotion into a catalyst for growth means accepting the emotion. For STS turning an emotion into a catalyst for growth means controlling the emotion by consciously repressing it and then later bringing it out in an organized, targeted application. I think this at least partly explains why targets often experience large bouts of stalking activity, separated by periods of relative calm.
What about processing positive emotions like love?
Developed beings of an STO polarity will experience a positive emotion like love of self and share the acceptance of this emotion with others by accepting them with all their unique opinions and traits as another being worthy of respect. STS beings can also feel love of self, but will control the emotion by passing along their knowledge to others usually through the formation of an elite, a set of disciples, and teaching them the ‘rightness’ of enslaving others ‘for their own good’.
Returning to the topic of repressed emotions and the thoughtforms these tend to create and sustain, relatively more developed STS entities who seek to manipulate less aware beings are drawn to the etheric interface. By rather unconsciously shoving strong emotions deep into the etheric layer, those who repress emotions build up a kind of unconscious layer of etheric stuff that may feel like a protective barrier (out of sight, out of mind), but can be used by more conscious beings as an unmonitored gray area through which to exploit the person’s sense of right and wrong, or some other facet of their perception of reality. Being that developed STS beings are relatively adept at consciously repressing and controlling their negative emotions, they are naturally inclined to ‘pick up on’ the unconsciously repressed emotions of others. They then try to control these, as they do their own negative emotions, and funnel them toward a target they wish to control. Thus the evil or STS influences and interference we encounter in life are internal as well as external.
Not only do negative thoughtforms provide vehicles through which STS beings can try to control a person, but unprocessed negative emotions are food for negative entities, be they thoughtforms or physical STS beings.
Mimic and Blend In: How STS leaders control
Applying our model of STO and STS polarities, the STS entities behind multitudes of gang stalkers like to mimic the target. Essentially, what happens is STS entities mirror STO targets’ energy signature back at them. This tactic is often taught to the stronger performer types of stalker as well. Until a target learns to identify this tactic, what he or she perceives in STS leader types is a false front of compassion or other positive qualities of the target. I’ve experienced this multiple times, and as I’ve gotten better at recognizing it, the attempts at mimicking me and my beliefs (distorted through the stalkers’ understanding) become ridiculous and even comical. In street theater situations this seems to be done to try and debase and ridicule what they think of my compassion-oriented beliefs, and other times is used as a mask in an attempt to gain my trust.
With regard to manipulation of less-witting stalkers, the same replicated false mask of kindness is presented to their pawns. For example, in analyzing the false accusations fueling some of the ’cause stalking’ in my case (I pieced these together from the strange reactions of internal struggle written on the faces of stalkers, along with the few outright accusation flinging and themed references passed around) I was able to see a pattern of the leader types adopting a general stance mimicking my tolerance and compassion, and switcheroo, while they’re at it, they take their misdeeds and nefarious intentions and apply them to the group’s conjured representation of me. Suddenly the target is accused of the very infractions acted out by the leader type(s) who remain hidden behind this ‘balanced illusion’.
Organized Stalking as Theft of Processing Power
I’ve found that many people who one day discover they are targets of gang stalking, are the more forward thinking, self-possessed kinds of people. Often they are compassionate people who strive to take personal responsibility for negative experiences, even when such experiences as ongoing harassment and attacks from others are outside of their control. To these targets, it’s up to each of us to spread awareness and thereby bring what we can control within our sphere of influence. In doing so, by increasing awareness in ourselves and others, we close up exploits in the gray areas through which malicious people try to lure us into self-debilitating stances like ongoing fear, depression and all things negative.
It seems time to learn about the different STO approaches called for when dealing with STS versus STO beings. Being kind to Undecideds means realizing that these people have the right to make their own decisions and must come to terms with their actions and developmental hurdles. We can help these people by sharing what we know and not giving in to the fear they try to elicit from us. Being kind to STS beings means not giving them power in the form of negative energy. Surviving and turning these negative experiences into something useful means developing understanding of these phenomena, consciousness of our internal struggles throughout these ordeals, and continued pushing ahead to pursue our passions and goals.
In my experience, these issues/shortcomings of less developed stalker types are issues/shortcomings that developing-STO types of targets do not have problems processing or dealing with. And so in the case where once trusted acquaintances become participants in a covert harassment campaign, the relatively more developed sense of personal responsibility that many target’s have is utilized in an ongoing and potentially draining manner. As the target continues to process the negative and gaslighting (ongoing induced confusion) experiences with undifferentiated-compassion, a type of circuit forms between the target and stalkers (in this type of close proximity anyway) whereby the stalkers subconsciously attempt to drain the target’s energy, while benefiting from projecting their shadow traits unto the target. While he or she does their best to process these elements, to help and make sense of things, the stalkers benefit (both from the stolen ‘enlighten-ment’ and from the negative energy bleeding when it becomes too much for the target to handle if they continue using the undifferentiated-compassion mode).
If you find yourself in close proximity with one or more of these types of negative people, and cannot get away from them (because they are close family members you are not willing to or cannot part from), take heart that such negative interaction will not go on forever. The very process of becoming more conscious of those types of interaction goes a long way toward nullifying the negative effects. Be sure that you make time for personal development, for focusing on the things in life that inspire you and give you joy. I know how tempting it can be to start tracking all the patterns of robotic stalker-critters and their cryptic references, but beyond becoming aware that this kind of stuff happens and learning to not let it get to you, there isn’t much to be gained from endless recording of observations of this kind. If you get too wrapped up in trying to understand what their motives are and why they are doing those things that you would not, that’s a sign right there-> that you are attributing your level of awareness and development to those who do not have such awareness and development. You are more developed than they are. In the case of friends or family members who say cryptic things, go ahead and question them. “What do you mean _____? What made you think to say that?” Oftentimes you’ll find it was something that just genuinely popped into their head for no apparent reason, or that they are referring to something other than what it seemed to you. If, what you get in response is more cryptic yet specific references to stalking themes and such, and this continues to happen, well it’s probably worth figuring out a way to put more distance between you and them, and/or put more effort toward pursuing your own development and passions.
Why the Increase in Gang Stalking?
Gang stalking is a global phenomenon. While most members of the general public have little to no knowledge of such crimes, there have been an increase in people reporting stalking by multiple perpetrators. More and more people are waking up to lessons of these polarities. As pressure to develop increases some are finding ways to make the most of negative influences and learn the most practical STO lesson, how *not* to feed STS. Some others are experiencing the pressure as a stifling of their creative juices, a squelching of the spirit. During these trying times it seems we are seeing a filtering process where the spiritually strong become stronger and the spiritually weak become weaker. On the most practical level everyone in life is feeling the pressure of the human drama and trying to find the best next step.
Some feel gang stalking to be a top-down program of state-sponsored torture, persecution and murder; part of an invisible war waged against individuals and the civil rights of the People. That’s not untrue. Though I think that such statements referring to government involvement come close to hitting a mark that’s meaningful in that it gets close to seeing the systemic problem/puzzle, such perspectives miss the mark when it comes to deciding how we as individuals can make changes that affect our outlook on life and our experiences.
On the most practical level there appears to be networks of people who show up to harass, watch and take part in gang stalking, from the neighborhood watch vigilante groups, to the more extreme attacks such as covert drugging and assault. I’ve experienced over 100 stalking accomplices (excluding the groups of friends-turned-stalkers I’d known personally before the stalking). The harassment and persecution experiences of targets are very real, but again what is the next logical step in tackling the puzzle of how can we improve our experiences?
Using our model of STS versus STO entities, targets are people that STS entities do not like because they threaten to wake up to their rights of creative development, and learn *not* to feed them, and also help others learn in the process.
Survival
Your survival depends on you, on your willingness to take responsibility for your free will. Gathering of knowledge is key to developing free will. The work of understanding, of sorting, the knowledge you collect is the work at hand. With all the information available to us the gathering of meaningful information can at times feel overwhelming. This is where critical thinking and intuition come in. Turning inward to consciously examine your feelings and intuition about the experiences and knowledge you collect is where understanding happens. Get out a piece of paper (or digital ‘paper’) and jot down some of what you know to this point (this can be things you’ve experienced and/or pieces of information from other sources on related topics). Your inherent inner sense of knowing will help you sort through the pieces. Gradually (and sometimes in lightning bursts!), understanding unfolds. As we develop understanding we realize we are part of a bigger picture and do not have to be unwitting pawns in someone else’s game.
To close with an appropriate line from ‘The Matrix”:
- Neo: What are you trying to tell me? That I can dodge bullets?
- Morpheus: No, Neo. I’m trying to tell you that when you’re ready, you won’t have to.