Welcome

For those of you on the way to a more solid grasp of what’s going on I welcome your presence and hope you’ll consider joining the forums so we can combine knowledge and forces.

For those of you who happened along this site searching for some insight about the confusion, disorder or intimidation tactics popping up in your life, this TI welcome page is primarily for you. I can certainly relate to the information gathering phase of trying to figure out: what the hell is going on?

First and foremost, realize you are not alone. Never forget this. Not only are there others who have gone through and are going through similar experiences, but I believe there are Friendly Forces who assist us when we need it most. An earnest request for assistance from our Higher Self can produce results in the form of intuition and strength to, at the very least, help us avoid getting sucked into negative emotions.

Whether through personal development, explorations of spirituality or networking with others with whom we can compare notesand share experiences, we can learn to leverage our growing knowledge and experience to regain composure and peace.

Where to Turn

Life as a targeted individual can at first be very draining, but as you learn some coping skills and learn to find understanding in the knowledge you gather, you will find there are many different forms of counter-measure that can be very effective. It’s just a matter of finding which ones work for you. The problem for many TIs when they finally realize something is really not right is that the continual harassment/attacks tend to reduce one to ’survival mode’ where it can be much more difficult to find quiet time to relax and regroup. For this reason, it’s very important to make time for yourself.

Start by making time for yourself, a time/space in which to turn inward and connect with your Self.

When it comes to the negative emotions that tend to build up in TIs starting to get a grip of understanding, patience and self-reliance is required.

There are many outlets one can utilize for getting out pent up anger, fear, confusion, and any other emotional build-up. I’ve gained a lot of piece of mind by sharing my own experiences, but others may feel good about writing their experiences in a more private way, or through other creative means. If you’re reading this I think it’s safe to assume that you’re a resourceful person who can brainstorm and find some creative ways to channel your experiences and related energies toward progress. Just give it time and open to the possibilities of the best lemonade you can make from the lemons you’ve stumbled across.

How do I deal with friends, family and those who do not understand what I’ve experienced?

You know, the pinnacle of this for me personally at this point is: to decidedly not give a fuck what naysayers and pseudo-skeptics think, because if they’ve never been targeted of course they don’t know what it feels like, of course it seems unlikely, that’s why it’s called covert harassment. I’ve found that the thing of it is many TIs feel torn between avoiding isolation and dealing with the distrust they feel toward others.

I’ve experienced accomplices passing themselves off as friends who are all too understanding (a ploy to get me to open up to and trust them), as well as trusted family and closest friends who just can’t grasp what I’ve been through, try as they might to be supportive.

Clearly, there are dangers to both of the above extremes. Trusting people who are in actuality deceitful is not the safest route for obvious reasons. That said, it’s important not to get sucked into constant worry about who’s who and second guessing every impression you have about someone or the actions of a person. The more you can stop the second guessing wheel, the clearer your intuition about people becomes. And don’t beat yourself up for not noticing attackers sooner than you could have in the past. You’re not to blame for their actions of deceit, it’s not your bag, their actions are their own. What does lie within your sphere of influence and responsibility is the seeking of understanding about yourself and your connections to the larger universe. With perseverance and turning toward your own inner sense of knowing, these pieces fall into place and you will have all you need to continue on about meaningful exploration, leaving the confusion of targeted existence in the past, as just one facet helping lead you to greater understanding.

Friendly Advice?

The problem with interacting extensively with someone who refuses to accept or simply cannot at least remain open minded and suspend their own judgments about your experiences, is that pursuing these types of relationships tends to leave one feeling split between 2 worlds. Honestly, this sensation of being torn and living in 2 distinct realities is the better possible outcome of interactions with those not willing or open-minded enough to hear you out –indoctrination toward forgetting what you know and working through the puzzle is a much worse possible outcome of interacting with those who cannot understand what you do. When you’re ready, this type of frequency traversing may be come in handy for helping to others sort their respective puzzle pieces.

In my experience, the biggest potential pitfall of trying to explain your experiences to someone not able to hear or relate to them is that good advice from even the most well meaning friends can effectively push a person to choose between 2 realities –the one where things are chaotic and sometimes quite challenging (to say the least), and the one where things are normal and just peachy if one can pretend like the stalking experiences were just a bad dream. Again, the risk here is ignoring the wonderful learning opportunities that come disguised as persecution and harassment.

It’s all about finding a middle ground, and if you know someone who is making you feel like your experiences are ‘not real’ or are just some outcropping of mental illness, then it’s probably best to take a break from that relationship.

Gaslighting

When I first tried to relate my experiences of being targeted for harassment to family and friends I kept getting really shitty, though well intended advice, like, “oh, don’t you think it’s possible that you’re imagining some of those perceptions?”, or “I really don’t see why anyone would bother putting that kind of time and effort into harassing you”, or “noooo, technology like that doesn’t exist, imagine the costs involved. What could you possibly have done to attract that kind of attention?” . . .

In my case, the result of listening to a lot of this kind of logic from people who had no idea what I was (or they were) talking about, and my own desire to regain some semblance of normalcy, lead to my putting up blinders and so not being able to sense attacks further on
down the road. While some of this earlier advice might have been truly benevolent in its intention, much of what i was dealing with in the way of mixed messages is called gaslighting. Coming from family members and trusted friends, this can be an extremely deleterious influence.

It should be mentioned that another, more progressive, way of seeing these phenomena of induced confusion is that the learning opportunities one can make out of experiences as a target of harassment keep coming until we invent ways of making sense of these pieces. When it comes to the trickier puzzle of trusted friends or family members’ seeming involvement, this is a sign that you are continuing to collect informative puzzle pieces, but are still lacking a means to putting these pieces into order. Again, you, yourself, are the highest authority of your life and gaining understanding. Each of us is a complete microcosm endowed with the same reasoning capabilities as the Universe (the Creative element in All and everything).

Trust yourself. Trust your instincts and intuition. If it doesn’t feel right, turn the other direction and just keep walking. Too often in the beginning of my experiences, shortly after realizing I was a Targeted Individual (that such a label existed to describe my experiences), I didn’t know how to trust my intuition because everywhere I went felt bad. This effect is partly to do with processing traumatic stalking events and learning to work through the accumulated negative emotions, but mainly to do with mobbing.

I don’t mean to suggest that one should become hyper-vigilant, because that extreme is not a good solution either, but in the search for community and a sense of belonging, don’t spend too much energy trying to be understood by those who cannot or will not. Those worth knowing; those with whom we can resonate in reciprocal, meaningful ways will come around and find respect for your experiences.

What does mobbing look like?

I find it helpful to remember that mobbing (and the whole of gang stalking, really) looks like this picture. It may seem to be all around, but this is psychological warfare. The perps hope to succeed in making you think everyone is in on it by strategically positioning stalkers around you (whether physically or socially or both), but all you have to do is turn a different direction and keep walking until you find yourself in friendlier territory once again.

Tune out Fear, Tune in Love and your Higher Self

For those TIs who have recently pieced together the covert war being waged on their rights and sanity ; for those who may find their wheels a-spin about the whole malevolent conspiracy that’s unfolded around them: Where to turn is toward inner strength and away from fear. While this may sound contrite or easier said than done, the empowering thing about the terror training you’ve gone through is that you’re outgrowing the fear reaction. Don’t worry, if you’re anything like me, this is an ongoing process and I don’t claim to be completely fearless, but as many other targeted individuals can attest to, once you exhaust the fear energy (if not, hopefully, sooner) and are able to start retraining these reactions, you can expect to experience fewer instances of fear and anxiety, and a growing power and resolution to fight your battles and live your life.

It seems to me that before finding the more salient bits of understanding about my experiences, and some first steps toward understanding even, I found more practical explorations for protecting my personal space by transforming the bits of scribbled notes and things I’d written to something more orderly. Along these lines I found that making my story known was one of the most effective tools for regaining control of my sense of self. I think it’s true that, like in the movie, The Matrix, once you have greater understanding you will not have to dodge bullets, for they will not be able to impact you at all. In the meantime, making your story public is a decent way to start working with the idea of defining your personal sphere, your experience and perspective. Internally, this is making order starting from within your Self, from where all true understanding comes. On the most practical level, making your story public, no matter how few or how many people may read it, tends to shine a light of awareness on you and your situation that will deter stalking. After all, gang stalking perpetrators rely on obfuscation; they would prefer to remain in the shadows and so if enough attention is brought to your situation they are likelier to go bother easier prey.

Whether you feel like starting a blog or other website, writing down your observations can really help in the processing of experiences and observations. Just like in school, writing down notes about what you read tends to help it not only stick more clearly in the memory, but aids in true, deeper, understanding. So no matter how jumbled your notes may seem at first, I recommend either starting by writing down some of your observations about your internal state, or finding a source of information that you find relevant/useful, and making notes as you go along to help gel the information into knowledge and understanding.

For more info about coping and personal development, check out these TI sub-sections:

• STO and STS: A philosophical exploration
• Psychic Self Defense
• Maintaining Positivity
• Online Resources (types of)
• Start a Website
• Books