As I touched on in this post, I received an email loaded with themed references on my birthday. Today I received another email from one of the other ‘friends’ who’d gone out of her way to take part in gang stalking exercises with me as a target. Additionally, she seems to fancy herself a leader type, as she played the role of organizer in rallying her own group of friends to also participate in the strange little gatherings where they acted out their super secret conspiracy. Why today? Why now? Simple, partly because I responded to the other friend’s emails and, as is always the case with stalker drones, they are told to and/or they think that repeated attempts at getting my attention will upset me and possibly drain my positive resources, at least for one day. Then again, it’s best not to attribute my own thinking to these people who choose to not even think for themselves.

A brief synopsis of my experiences with the ‘friend’ who sent me an email today: we parted ways many years ago because I chose not to give in to her controlling demands to become as she thought I ’should’ be. Some 10 years later, during the 2 years that she pretended to be my friend she lured me into several street theater and dangerous situations. Toward the end of the re-kindled friendship when I questioned her actions she came right out and accused me of ‘grouping her with all those other people’ [referring to the information about my experiences being drugged, etc]. When I asked her for a bit of time to collect my thoughts in light of a larger attack that took place, it took her a day and a half to become irate start sending accusatory emails, in which she said, “I am really sincerely sorry for what happened to you, but you have to become responsible for your actions”. Can you say covert terrorism in the name of vigilantism?

But, you know, always one to make lemonade with rotten lemons sitting around, this has the benefit of moving up (to happen sooner) a blog series I’ve been brainstorming about esoteric teachings relating to personal development, one facet of which touches on betrayal by close friends and family members and how our environment produces these pressures from those closest to us.

Though I’ve always seen others as equal beings deserving respect, the truth is that we are not all at the same point of personal development so this general perspective was lacking some substantial adjustments; people who take part in covertly persecuting another being are not the same caliber of beings. Essentially, they are aspects of nature more than individual beings capable of free will, cogs in a systemic control network (they are ‘A’ influences). They too have the ability to grow and become truly sentient beings capable of true individuation, but until that time it’s certainly worth educating ourselves about the different levels of development so as to avoid A influences and focus our attention on the B influences of personal development.

For those of you not familiar with the terms A and B influences…

In short, A influences are those which seek to keep the status quo, and keeping people in their places. B influences are those which speak to us individually about personal development and opening to greater possibilities. These are both divine universal forces which seemingly work against each other, but are responsible for the balance between stasis and development, personally and the metaphysical development of entire worlds. These labels, A and B influences, are often attributed to Gurdjieff, who studied esoteric teachings of several religious ‘flavors’ –that is, the teachings found in many religions before history and the systems of control got their hands on religion and religious texts, which are now full of contradictions and lacking many of the original and fundamental teachings, making it difficult for devout followers of the respective religions to determine a proper course of personal development. These labels and many of the teachings were made public by Gurdjieff’s associate, Ouspensky, and the entire system of philosophical teachings and exploration were made even clearer and more accessible by Mouravieff. This is one of the most well known chains of seekers through which the once secret information has moved closer to public access.

In the coming days I’m going to start a blog series related to esoteric teachings that apply to phenomena of covert harassment and the ways individuals can use awareness of both A and B influences toward further understanding of self and the pursuit of personal development.  Stay tuned…