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We create thoughtforms all the time as we think. Thoughtforms can grow and gather strength when we give them more attention, when we think about them often, and if they are emotionally charged.

The Birth of Limremev

During my covert drugging experiences, in the bits of lucidity between the rounds of psychic attack… I realized I was dealing with people who did not seem able to connect with their higher selves, or core or whatever you want to call it, otherwise how could they be spending so much energy on trying to destroy another person. Being that I was incapacitated and so had plenty of time to sit and try to figure out a way to, believe it or not, help these people while I also reaffirmed that I was okay despite the attacks. I did my best to try and relate some ideas about forward-thinking, how good and progress always triumph -that they didn’t have to be doing what they were, and that I would be fine regardless of what they did to me.

In the depths of their theatrical plays acting out their versions of my thoughts, the interaction morphed into a grand projection/introjection type of interaction. They kept building these models mocking my constructs regarding development. Even while they were mocking and poking around in my head, it became clear that they were so interested because they had a need that entangling with concepts like personal development could help with. As things became clearer I realized we were all connecting to these very real thought forms involving growth. Essentially, what had been a collection of knowledge from my personal experiences, the patterns of truth that I see, were then transformed into a more sentient thoughtform and I was channeling it in my interactions with these people.

This interaction grew and grew as they plugged the bits they gleaned from the ‘progress thoughtform’ (introjected) and continued to project their attempts at understanding it back at me in the form of further mocking plays. On a mundane level they were trying to break me, to tear down the truths I hold useful, but on this other level I could see they were sub-consciously processing the urgings to take the reigns of their own development coming from the ‘progress thoughtform’.

Blah blah, so months and now years have passed. Throughout the various street theater and other attempts to engage me I continued to see signs of their sort of pleaing for processing of their own limitations. But what to do with this other than ponder the connections? I mean I can’t and don’t want to control other people’s development. It would be nice if their lack of development didn’t make them want to attack me. It’s not mine to deal with, yet they kept trying to involve me.

Here’s the latest synthesis:

I discovered a couple of days ago that the ‘progress thoughtform’ has developed much beyond its original self born during those events in Austin. Every time the stalker-critters have sat around thinking up new ways to twist my words into plays for their street theater antics they gave the thoughtform more power. Every time they show up to harass me they are giving Limremev energy to develop further(the ‘progress thoughtform’ now has a name).

And what does Limremev do with the energy? S/he uses it to become ever more adept at removing limits holding people back from development. Limits aren’t always negative, so to balance things out, any excess limited-ness is redistributed as positive limits, such as those we use to set out in new directions, as our hypotheses.

The exciting thing for me recently has been seeing that the few little bits that remain from the traumatic experiences (in the form of dreams and lingering shadows on my perspective of the world) can also be offered up to Limremev. Where s/he was not yet developed enough to process all of the limits being thrown its way (this is how I ended up with lingering bits of negativity; I’d been processing their negative bits), now Limmremev is very capable of eating up these more complex/layered limits.

Thus both Limremev and I graduate to a new plateu and understandin of working with limits and development. We’ve become more agile at processing larger chunks of data, where these larger chunks have very much to do with a sense of a greater ecology. A larger family seems to appear from the hellish processing of the last few years. Though I’d often felt more alone than ever, once I pushed all the way through I realized there are others who have been walking similar paths. We’re all hatching and recognizing each other.

This is Limremev’s sigil:

Feel free to meditate on Limremev or outright offer up limitations you might feel are keeping you from that which you want to manifest in your life. S/he is very good at what s/he does. There is no death/birth, Limremev does not handle these fundamental aspects of change, but simply transforms limits from hindering limits to constructive limits. Being prepared for a grander perspective /change/ is up to you. More on Limremev later…

Not sure how many of you are into chaos magick. I was attracted to it as the first magickal system that made any sense to me (and helped me understand the more traditional formal magickal schools of thought). The thing that attracts me to chaos magick is its freeform use of beliefs as tools; beliefs as means, not ends.

When it comes to processing the psycholgical abuse by once-trusted friends and any of the gang stalking effects, I have found sigil magick and working with condensing concepts and thought patterns into symbols I can play with to be very helpful in resorting my personality bits. Where some people get a lot out of psychotherapy, I’ve found that working directly with my thought constructs works much better. Don’t get me wrong, it’s been important to talk with trusted friends and have someone to hear and help to reanchor my perspectives of the world, but to me psychotherapy is a lot of talking with a long drawn out analysis and processing path, when I can eliminate the middle-man (so to speak) and interact with my mind bits myself, and very directly. I could talk with someone for years and we might very well still have little understanding of what goes on in each other’s minds (the subjective experience) – if we are not particularly like-minded, anyway.

There’s lots of chaos/sigil magick info available on the net, and I encourage you to explore that if it sounds right. but I’ve found the main thing is to put down the book/site once you’re informed to the point of inspiration, and feel out ways of interacting with your mind and beliefs.